memmories..

I just miss my friends a lot these days....dunnno why. Friends means ma classmates n room mates..who else?hm. I was not a here among either of them. Infact i was kind of a zero.. I dunno wheather they remember me.....wheather they have loved me.or hated me.. or they just didn't care about me? no idea.. But I do miss them...and I do love them a lot...and even I just pray for them evreyday.. Though I was a zero...they never made my feel so...apart from the first year..Somebody was always there to laugh with me...
Thanks buddies...you are in my heart!

the end

hi,

ya. As I told in the last post, she did it nicely. I mean ...nicely. She talked about all those "good friendship..misunderstanding it...no point if we continue..our love doesn't have any future...bla bla bla..." and finaly "there was a guy who cared me lot.....bla bla bla..".. Anyway it was nice to here from her that it was not b'coz of that guy she started making gap bw us...but b'coz of the thoughts that our love doesn't seem to have a future. hmm thank you dear for thiose words. Otherwise it would be worse..

tomorrow wil hurt..

Again into blogger after sometime...
Ya..chinchu gonna confes me tomorrow..hm.I could already figured out what she is going to tell. Frankly,I was just waiting to here everything from her mouth itself..
Ya...we were in love for sometime. Eventhough it was short ,it was beautiful..
We were nice to each other for some months but, later I could sense kind of detachment from her side. in that case why should I keep it alive?...I just gave it up..(was not.that easy,thoughP.but she was keep disturbing my mind till today.

So tomorrow she is going to tell me what really hapend.. why she gave it up(did she?a spark of hope....hey..kidding)..and all. I know what it would be...it may b like .." jo..i told you abt one guy na who proposed me.? He was after me whereever i went..and u know he was so irresistable..i couldn't control myself.."...something like that?

Anyway..i don't have a problem in that.i just told her ,whatever she's gonna tell,she would be my dearest friend always..it was from my heart. I know what i am..frankly i know i don't deserv her.she can get far better match...but stil,she just loved me once..huh? So how can i hate her...especially when she's right about her choices?
I don't blame anybody...else...

God... you didn't make me smart.you didn't make me charming... You didn't make me tall... You didn't make me nice talking... You just made me like this..
then how i can blame her for not loving me as i wish....my dear God???

Let it go.........